posting thru the slump like a champ please hold your applause #wlw #lesbian #lgbtq #gay #femmelesbian #nyc #newyork #shopping #bodyimage #ednotsheeranrec0very #recovery #healing
I wrote this last spring and then dusted it off this morning because I had more to say. My feelings about my history with my mother ebb and flow. The first time I wrote this I felt complete peace, release, and gratitude for my life without my mom. That’s how I feel most of the time. It continues to be the best decision i have ever made. Today though, I woke up and decided I wanted to play piano, and as I practiced the song I have been learning, a song about betrayal, I thought of her fleetingly. And then I remembered it’s Mother’s Day. The only other feeling I have about being no-contact with my mother besides gratitude for her absence is blinding hot rage. And as that pot bubbled over, I peppered some of it into this musing on reclaiming ownership myself. #mothersday #nocontact #estranged #therapy #healing #writing #writingtok